9.08.2014

here comes the rain again.

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It has been a very rainy weekend here in Arizona.
I am all too aware of my fall off of the blogging wagon the past month and a half. I don't know what to say except sorry to my fans that have missed me or wanted new wolfy content.
I will try to be more on top of Wearing Wolf but life has definitely gotten in the way lately.

This has been the type of rainy monsoon covered day that I have so rarely been excused from my Student Teaching. I started four weeks ago (already). I only have about 12 more weeks of student teaching in which to take 4 Teaching Certification exams and become a slave to the TAP rubric on which I will graded on a scale on of 1 (completely worthless) to 5 (never given heights of perfect teaching) by the teaching trinity of my mentor teacher, supervisor, and program coordinator.

It isn't an easy thing to persue any career, minimum wage or degree requiring with a physical disabilty and I have definitely felt a bit of the struggle trying to fight over placements in school I can't get transportation to or work with sales people or professors over the years that have discriminated against me due to my lack of perfect vision.

I have stayed true to myself in all this time and have really began to feel myself blossom into a strong yet passionate individual despite society's best efforts to keep me down, brainwashed, insecure, and addicted to buying, reading, and watching trash that doesn't nourish my soul in the least.

This past year, I have really been able to better assess what is truly important to me...I have come a long way with the near completion of my Masters Degree, and I have been slowly trucking away at my personal writing projects (and feel closer than ever to publication).

Last Spring, I had started communicating with my soulmate, Noah, who is assuredly the man of my dreams and Only One for me. Where this blog used to fill a lot of space in my heart where I felt empty and frustrated with life and craved material things or was hot-headed towards pop culture, I don't have as many moments like that lately. Or perhaps they are more fleeting than before since I feel so much more grounded.


Am I still pissed off about a lot of things going on in the news, media, advertising, ect.? Yes. Do I still read books like they are going out of style? Yes. Do I still have a head full of trash tv commmentry and posts to write? Of course. I just need to sort through my priorities and make more time for Wearing Wolf.

Wearing Wolf was the longest running relationship I've had with any piece of my writing or social media. My DeviantArt, ElfWood, MySpace and dating profile have all served this purpose and faded into oblivion (except for some archived stuff which I had to write bitchy emails and complain about for two years before those webpages were taken down, but that's another story).

Wearing Wolf will always find a home on my computer and in my heart and I don't want any of you readers, old readers or new readers, to give up on this blog or think I've lost interest in you all.

I am still here, just very busy right now doing so many things I can't even handle to be up at night much later 9 pm. I dream of a wedding, of paradise, of a classroom to call my own, a world where peace is the prayer shawl that blankets us all in protection regardless of our beliefs, lack of beliefs or colors. I dream of women being more than bodies and stereotypes, of all women meeting a man as precious as mine, of my books becoming movies, & of poetry coming alive.

It is okay to dream.
xx

7.30.2014

the big 3 'oh.'



 My boyfriend turned 30 this past week and it has basically been a whirlwind of fun, shopping, eating cake, winning tickets to a free comedy show (that turned out to be the best show any of us have ever been to), seeing his family, being tourists in a western town, and other shenanigans.


I've been pretty busy with school this past week since I'm already wrapping up my last clasroom style class before student teaching.

I'm also looking into PhD programs which may just end up costing me another 60K in student loans.

I'm just not sure what's next. I don't know. But is it exciting?
Hell, yeah.
xx

7.23.2014

summer grilling.

 summer nights by the grill with the sweet smell of bbq sauce & pineapple hibiscus home-brewed iced tea...
these are the nights I live for, that I look forward to when I wake up in the morning and reminisce about as I lay my head down to sleep <3 p="">
xx

7.22.2014

Blue Belle.



 I'm wearing: tj maxx shirt, anthropologie skirt, MIA sandals, tignanello crossbody bag, ray ban sunglasses, target rhinestone headband, my new skagen watch :D
 

Well here it is--another Bluesy Tuesday look with my super blue color-rich ruffled pencil skirt from anthropologie. I bought a few weeks ago on mega clearance (it was only $12) and my mom actually picked it out and announced her approval when I tried it on. I bought another clearance skirt with it, an oxblood-colored faux leather skirt with more of a tulip hem that is just as cute and by the same brand.
I think the tricky thing with this sort of body con skirt is to be aware that the top needs to be balanced out and a bit looser to allow for good proportions. As long as I have my waist defined and have my curves really accentuated, I feel sexy and confident.
I really love my new watch that my boyfriend bought me as a gift (I wanted a sleek and expensive watch for student teaching since I am always with one eye on the clock) and I love my little purple purse that I have been using all the time. I know it's not really fancy or designer or anything like that but it's good Italian leather and so convenient and light. It adds a fun pop of color to most of my outfits and purple is a power color after all. It also has a built in wallet.

Anyway, hope you like my look & shout out to all my followers new & old, and special thanks and love for you all that have been with me since the first post--905 posts ago!
Look how far we've come!

Cheers,
xx